I was over-emotional during the first trimester. I cried watching Friends re-runs, cried when any commercial came on, cried because of anything. I got better during the second trimester. Life was grand and I got my senses back. Nowadays, I'm a wreck!
It's not just the stress of carrying the baby through all this time with the fear of going into labor early again. It's not the pains of not being able to sleep through the night (I wake up every 2 hours to use the restroom). It's not the back pains I have on a daily basis. It's not even the contractions that I've been experiencing since before 27 weeks. What is it then?
It's the constant comments I get from people at work:
"You're SO big!"
"You're bigger than ___ and she's due the same time as you!"
"You're not going to make it to June!"
"I give you to May. You won't last till June."
"You REALLY grew!"
I'm sure they mean well and everything, but I just want to shout back:
"YOU'RE BIG! YOU'RE BIGGER THAN EVERYONE I KNOW! I GIVE YOU TILL MAY!!"
Instead of shouting back though, I go home and have a breakdown. Weekly breakdown. That can't be good right? I'm so tired. The only things keeping me going are knowing that the Lord is watching over us and the baby, Eugene, and the baby.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
33 weeks along
33 weeks along in my 33rd year. :) Here are my latest stats:
weight: 131.6 pounds (a 22 pound weight gain so far)
latest cravings: cake...definitely cake!
latest annoyance: waking up every 2 hours to use the restroom...not fun!
latest enjoyment: feeling baby move...I LOVE IT!
Here I am at 28 weeks, with one of baby's new stuffed animals at 28 weeks, 31 weeks, and 32 weeks. Boy I'm getting bigger!
weight: 131.6 pounds (a 22 pound weight gain so far)
latest cravings: cake...definitely cake!
latest annoyance: waking up every 2 hours to use the restroom...not fun!
latest enjoyment: feeling baby move...I LOVE IT!
Here I am at 28 weeks, with one of baby's new stuffed animals at 28 weeks, 31 weeks, and 32 weeks. Boy I'm getting bigger!
Baby Shower Time
My sweet co-residents pulled together and threw me a baby shower this weekend filled with wonderful company, "baby" music, great food, fun games, and never-ending laughs. Eugene got to be the only guy present, but he had tons of fun too. In fact, we had so much fun, we couldn't concentrate afterwards. :P Thank you girls for a memorable baby shower!
**Pattie was right on with the measurement of my belly!**
**Lorraine explaining her interesting baby game**
**Yummy Japanese cheesecake!**
**Thank you for coming everyone!**
**Pattie was right on with the measurement of my belly!**
**Lorraine explaining her interesting baby game**
**Yummy Japanese cheesecake!**
**Thank you for coming everyone!**
Monday, March 29, 2010
Our Babymoon!
We went on our babymoon this past weekend to Pacific Grove and Monterey and stayed at the Centrella Inn. It was the perfect weekend to go -- the weather was absolutely fabulous! I don't think we've ever been to Monterey with such good weather before. Not a cloud in the sky and the ocean was a beautiful blue! We didn't go to the aquarium this time around because I'm more limited now in how much I can walk and everything I can do, but we still had a sweet time together just strolling along and soaking in the weather and the sites. It was definitely what both of us needed to relax, forget about the things that have happened the past month, and enjoy our time together before we become a family of 3.
**In front of our bed & breakfast**
**Eugene climbing rocks at Lover's Point**
**Swinging around in the garden at the bed & breakfast**
**Hanging out at Monterey**
**Eugene climbing rocks at Lover's Point**
**Swinging around in the garden at the bed & breakfast**
**Hanging out at Monterey**
**Inside our room**
**Clowning around in a sardine can**
**At Monterey**
**In front of our bed & breakfast**
**Clowning around in a sardine can**
**At Monterey**
**In front of our bed & breakfast**
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Pregnancy is...
... realizing that our lives are changing for the better.
... wondering how we will be as parents.
... wondering when I'll start showing.
... getting the H1N1 shot and sick right afterwards.
... not being able to take medications for all of my symptoms.
... hoping that the baby is a boy.
... crying about everything and anything.
... seeing baby for the first time as a peanut.
... seeing my food twice (once going in, once coming back out).
... heartburn!
... funny tastes in my mouth.
... wanting to tell everyone but can't.
... hearing baby's heart beat for the first time.
... making the big announcement!
... waiting for the nausea to stop.
... craving meat!
... waiting for my belly to grow.
... waiting to feel baby move for the first time.
... backaches.
... registering for baby stuff.
... realizing we're really going to be parents!!!
... feeling baby move for the first time!
... getting belly rubs from friends and strangers...agh!
... being told I'm fat (so mean!).
... getting strange looks from strangers...I'm pregnant! Stop staring!
... talking to the baby all the time and hoping he can hear me.
... being admitted to the hospital for preterm labor.
... realizing that my favorite part about being pregnant is feeling the baby move everyday.
... being scared and worried all the time.
... loving baby more and more everyday.
... throwing up again. yuck!
... wondering how we will be as parents.
... wondering when I'll start showing.
... getting the H1N1 shot and sick right afterwards.
... not being able to take medications for all of my symptoms.
... hoping that the baby is a boy.
... crying about everything and anything.
... seeing baby for the first time as a peanut.
... seeing my food twice (once going in, once coming back out).
... heartburn!
... funny tastes in my mouth.
... wanting to tell everyone but can't.
... hearing baby's heart beat for the first time.
... making the big announcement!
... waiting for the nausea to stop.
... craving meat!
... waiting for my belly to grow.
... waiting to feel baby move for the first time.
... backaches.
... registering for baby stuff.
... realizing we're really going to be parents!!!
... feeling baby move for the first time!
... getting belly rubs from friends and strangers...agh!
... being told I'm fat (so mean!).
... getting strange looks from strangers...I'm pregnant! Stop staring!
... talking to the baby all the time and hoping he can hear me.
... being admitted to the hospital for preterm labor.
... realizing that my favorite part about being pregnant is feeling the baby move everyday.
... being scared and worried all the time.
... loving baby more and more everyday.
... throwing up again. yuck!
Friday, March 12, 2010
A pretty big scare
After 10 pokes, 3 nights of restless sleep, 3 days of continuous magnesium infusion, and multiple cervix examinations, I am FINALLY home and baby is still safe and sound inside the womb.
3/9/10 (Tuesday):
Our 5 year anniversary of being together. What better way to celebrate than contractions all day (~6-7/hour)? I was pretty concerned so I emailed my OB who recommended that I get myself to the labor & delivery ward at Kaiser SF to get checked out. It's a good thing that I went. I was 1 cm dilated! They termed it "Pre-term Labor" which sounds quite scary...because it is! They checked the baby and he was doing just great, so I was started on magnesium to stop the contractions. Who knew that magnesium infusion can make one so fatigued, lethargic, out of it, nauseous, sleepy, and just completely loopy! I was soooo not myself! I was also started on betamethasone shots for the baby's lungs development just in case I was to deliver during this hospitalization or just flat out early.
3/10/10 (Wednesday):
My contactions calm down so the magnesium infusion is turned down. I'm less loopy, but they still want to keep me for observations. I also needed to finish the betamethasone course so obviously, I was there until Thursday at least. Except...starting around 3:20 am (Thursday morning), I started getting contractions a little too close for comfort. First every 10 minutes, then every 5 minutes. I was placed on the baby and contraction monitor and at around 5:15am, BAM! Pain like I've never experienced before! The doctors thought I was going into labor so I was transferred back to Labor and Delivery, all sorts of neonatal stuff were brought into the room just in case, they put another line in me just in case I needed an emergency C-section, and I seriously thought I was going to die!
3/11/10 (Thursday):
The magnesium infusion was turned back up and the contractions are stablized. Meanwhile, the whole team is at a loss in terms of what could have caused all of these problems. The baby was doing great, but the incubator, the mommy (that's me) was not doing well at all. I was still about 1-1.5 cm dilated, so the baby wasn't coming anytime soon, but there were too many variables. Was it a placenta rupture? Was it appendicitis? Was it kidney stones? Was it a uterine infection? All my labs ruled all of those out and the ultrasound showed that the placenta was just fine. It required a more precise ultrasound to find the culprit: a degenerating fibroid on my uterine wall. Who knew that a degenerating fibroid could cause so much trouble? So much contraction to lead to dilation?
3/12/10 (Friday):
I'm finally home now and boy am I ever happy to be home! Baby is doing quite well, still moving around like he's swimming in the womb. As for me, I'm still having contractions and back pains, but definitely less than when I first went into the hospital. One things for sure, I HIGHLY recommend Kaiser SF Labor and Delivery for anyone and everyone who wants to be taken soooooo goo care of. The nurses were caring and affectionate, the doctors were attentive and sweet, it was a wonderful experience, despite the circumstances. Let's hope I don't go back there for another 13 weeks!
3/9/10 (Tuesday):
Our 5 year anniversary of being together. What better way to celebrate than contractions all day (~6-7/hour)? I was pretty concerned so I emailed my OB who recommended that I get myself to the labor & delivery ward at Kaiser SF to get checked out. It's a good thing that I went. I was 1 cm dilated! They termed it "Pre-term Labor" which sounds quite scary...because it is! They checked the baby and he was doing just great, so I was started on magnesium to stop the contractions. Who knew that magnesium infusion can make one so fatigued, lethargic, out of it, nauseous, sleepy, and just completely loopy! I was soooo not myself! I was also started on betamethasone shots for the baby's lungs development just in case I was to deliver during this hospitalization or just flat out early.
3/10/10 (Wednesday):
My contactions calm down so the magnesium infusion is turned down. I'm less loopy, but they still want to keep me for observations. I also needed to finish the betamethasone course so obviously, I was there until Thursday at least. Except...starting around 3:20 am (Thursday morning), I started getting contractions a little too close for comfort. First every 10 minutes, then every 5 minutes. I was placed on the baby and contraction monitor and at around 5:15am, BAM! Pain like I've never experienced before! The doctors thought I was going into labor so I was transferred back to Labor and Delivery, all sorts of neonatal stuff were brought into the room just in case, they put another line in me just in case I needed an emergency C-section, and I seriously thought I was going to die!
3/11/10 (Thursday):
The magnesium infusion was turned back up and the contractions are stablized. Meanwhile, the whole team is at a loss in terms of what could have caused all of these problems. The baby was doing great, but the incubator, the mommy (that's me) was not doing well at all. I was still about 1-1.5 cm dilated, so the baby wasn't coming anytime soon, but there were too many variables. Was it a placenta rupture? Was it appendicitis? Was it kidney stones? Was it a uterine infection? All my labs ruled all of those out and the ultrasound showed that the placenta was just fine. It required a more precise ultrasound to find the culprit: a degenerating fibroid on my uterine wall. Who knew that a degenerating fibroid could cause so much trouble? So much contraction to lead to dilation?
3/12/10 (Friday):
I'm finally home now and boy am I ever happy to be home! Baby is doing quite well, still moving around like he's swimming in the womb. As for me, I'm still having contractions and back pains, but definitely less than when I first went into the hospital. One things for sure, I HIGHLY recommend Kaiser SF Labor and Delivery for anyone and everyone who wants to be taken soooooo goo care of. The nurses were caring and affectionate, the doctors were attentive and sweet, it was a wonderful experience, despite the circumstances. Let's hope I don't go back there for another 13 weeks!
Sunday, March 7, 2010
We love the Farmer's Market!
We finally woke up early like we used to and had plenty of time to do some regular grocery shopping at Trader Joes as well as some fresh produce shopping at the Alemany Farmer's Market. It was actually a nice sunny day in San Francisco so we didn't mind walking around and checking out all the cheap and fresh produce and flowers. Can you believe it? We bought...broccolini, clementines, oranges, dates, prunes, chinese broccoli, chard, tamales all for less than $15?! It was a steal! I think we may make it a routine to go get some yummy fresh produce every Saturday morning. And once baby arrives, we'll be sure to take him with us to show him off to the world. :)
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